Qoute #38

"Being the bull for the ram makes us the complete opposite for each other, for the bull that never haste and the ram that never stops... how can we possibly meet now?" - Crisena

Toy Story

1. No owners means no heartbreak

The Pleasure of your company

"No matter how hard you try to plan your life. life has a plan for you on its own..."

Since its God's plan,will and time.. whatever life will bring you and whatever life can offer... just go on with it. It may be hard at times, painful and not what you have been expecting but if you trust and have faith in the Good Lord soon everything will be okay. You only have to pray hard and believe that He has good plans for you.

Sleepy Hollow

"I am bewitched by you"

You put a spell on me that i cannot reverse and now i become your slave and you are my master.

Sixth Sense

"Sometimes people thinks they lose things and they really did not lose them its was just moved "

Sometimes when people walks out of your life dont think they have left you... they just moved.

Serendipity

Sometimes things become blurry, but if its really meant to be whatever negative things might happen if its yours, it will be... in God's time. 

1. Fate is behind everything
2. If we are meant to meet again then well meet again
3. your my oracle
4. Yet even in certain defeat, you secretly clung to the belief that life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences but rather, its a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan
If we are to live life in harmony with the universe, we must all possess a powerful faith in what the ancients used to call "fatum", what we currently refer to as destiny

"Waiting in Vain? - Bob Marley

Salt

How many more like you are there? "Like me, none. Like him, more than you or I can handle alone."

There are many more bad people like you, but you only have one me who can love you the way i do..
Well that is how i see it in real life, but with the movie its different of course.
Angelina Jolie was so cool i so like her.

Mirrors

1. i am doing everything that i can so i can get back on my feet again

Its when you stand up everytime you fall.

2. there is no one looking back at you thru the mirrors

If looking back will be scary for me, then i wont look back again. Mirrors are scary metaphors.

Love Happens

"Happiness is a state of mind. And like all things it takes practice.. devote at least 5 min a day and after a while itll come naturally"

When we set our minds that we are happy then we will. Its only a matter of mind setting and by being positive.

Iron Man 2

"Solve the riddle of your heart"

You have to really know what you really want in life so you wont hurt anybody in the process of solving what your heart feels.

Interview with a Vampire

1. Lost my sanity..

When im in love, im insane.

2. I longed for death.. i invited it.. to release the pain of living..

Sometimes, you choose to die rather than live so you could not feel the pain anymore.

3. Have you said your goodbyes to the light

You feel hopeless, and darkness will take place for being one.

4. Life without you would be even more unbearable

You cannot live without him/her.

5. Lock together in hatred.. but i cant hate you..

You loved someone so much you cant hate them even if they do something bad at you.

6. Do you know what his soul said to me without saying a word.. let him go.. thats what i should do.. let you go..

If it hurts a lot and you think it was not healthy for you anymore, then you should let go even if you dont want to.

7. But you ask the wrong questions so you get a wrong answer..

You have to think first before acting.

8. No one could refuse me not even you.. i tried.. yes you tried and the more you tried.. the more i wanted you..

Sometimes the more you fight for your feelings, the more you wanted it more and more.

Inception

1.Dreams feel real while we're in them. It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange

Well in dreams we can make impossible things come true but when we wake up its not there. We make unrealistic beliefs when we sleep and we wake up in the reality that it will never happen.

2. Dreams within dreams is too unstable

If we dream too much of something impossible then we can be very unstable since it will really be hard to accept the fact that its only a dream.

Finding Neverland

1. Its not going to work if no one believes in it..

We must have positive outlook in life.

2. how could anyone think something so evil..you find the glamour of hoping into this world.. there will always be someone who wants to destroy it.. dont think that anyone dreams with such nonsense
people watch you and they will find a way to drag you down

People will always see the negative side of you even if you dont do anything

3. you protect what you have

Appreciate the people around you

4. time is chasing after all of us..isnt that right?

We always have to meet our deadlines but with these it gives us so much pressure in life that we end up not enjoying it at all.

5. you just think wonderful thoughts

It gives you positive aura if you see life in a positive way..

6. even if that can never be.. i need to go on pretending.. until the end.. with you..

Sometimes, things just dont work the way it should be so you just hold on tight to what you believe will make you happy even if its hopeless... even if you know it will still not gonna work in the end.

7. i could never have written anything like this.. i need you..its part of all of us..

Sometimes you need an inspiration to work on things.

8. you are in every page of my imagination...

You are part of me and my brain wont function if im not with you. You give me life.

9. i can be with you.. i'll just believe i will..

You hope that someday you could be with the one you truly love, because you have faith in your feelings that in time, there will be hope for the two of you to stay together. If its God's will, then it will happen.

Eclipse

1.Marriage is just a piece of paper.. but its a way of saying i love you

Having a label like "gf/bf/wife/husband" is just formality but yes it is the way of saying i love you and i dont want to lose you so i tried to tie you up with me. You are proud to say to everyone like "hey this is mine! and i love this person so dearly and i wont let you take him/her away from me!"

2.Never go for the obvious kill. They'll be expecting that. And you, will lose.

Lets wake up guys, being in a relationship is not really equal in terms of giving and taking love. So if the other person sees you as being obvious in love, they can take advantage. We have to learn to give 50% of our love to our partners and 50% to ourselves but we give them 100% of our trust that makes it more equal.

Corpse Bride

1. Young man, you must learn your vows

A person must commit to something sacred so it could give the other person the assurance she needed to feel secure with the relationship.

2. What does that whispy little brat have that you don't have double?
She can't hold a candle to the beauty of your smile
Overrated by a mile

Its when there is another girl that your man sees and with that, he dont see that you are far more better than her but he keeps on choosing what he thinks is better for him.

3. If only he could see
How special you can be
If he only knew the you that we know

Sometimes, your man does not see your worth the way your friends does.

4. There must be something to undo what is done

If the outcome is negative, we tend to find ways to make things positive.

5. perhaps in disappointments we are perfectly matched

Its mutual pain we share.

6. can heart still break once it stop beating?

Its when you're hurt so bad "nth times" and the feeling is gone yet the one that you love most still tried to break your heart.

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

1. everyone has a chance.. 

2. the best kind of prize is a surprise...

3. the endorphin theory of love is a view that when two people fall in love the body will release a plethora of endorphins, the body's natural morphine (a heroine like substance), and that this accounts for the pleasurable feelings of being in love --- by eating chocolates

Cast Away

"You got to keep breathing because tomorrow the sun will rise.. who knows what the tide can bring.."

Its like saying - I got to keep breathing even though there is no reason to hope..

Alice in Wonderland

1. you can always paint the roses red

Its like in life, you can always have a solution for every problem that you may encounter even if its too impossible to solve.  

2. where have you've been lurking

If there is somebody that you really want so bad has been sneaking around and dont want to let you see him and it gets hard to find that person you are looking for. 

3. its far more better to be feared than loved

When you are feared, you get control. Yes not all will be true to you but you gain respect and people will care if you get mad or if something has been troubling you they will be afraid of you that you might do something unpredictable. This is for selfish people who uses their power to gain control over things which is sometimes advantageous to some who play safe and dont want to get hurt.

For being loved, the difference is that people will be true to you and "what you see you get". But, with being loved, you give them chance to choose. Its a give and take scenario. The disadvantage of being loved is you take risk and eventually get hurt in the process which is not seen when you are selfish and self-centered.

 4. its just a pigment of my imagination

Its just you who are assuming, others dont see it the way you do. 

5. ill miss you when i wake up

Its like you only see somebody in the dreamworld.. and once you open your eyes to reach them they were not there. This are the people who are out of your life since they choose to left you.

Qoute #37

"the truth is all of us will die.. the question is... what will you do if you die today?" - Meong

I was delighted to see this status from a friend of mine which makes me remember of my true insights of what i call "gift of life".

Before i read this qoutation, i was down and lonely due to some inevitable circumstances that made me sad and depressed. But i forgot at a minute that i always make it to a point to live a happy life no matter how painful my life can be... but it must not stop there. I must move on and be happy and appreciate what life can offer. I was thankful that i have remembered this mindset of mine so i could go on again and be strong.

My response to the qoute was:

"Being afraid of death means you are not happy at all today. When you live your life like you can die exactly at this moment i could say you are happy and contented with life.That is why they always say live your life to the fullest, some may not be good at you/circumstances seems to be bad at times but as long as you accept them and thank them from coming and not be bitter about it then there is life. The gift of life of eternal happiness is when you are happy in every seconds of your life  Hello death you can take me anytime im happy now (even death will be afraid to take someone as happy as you are)" - Crisena

Excerpt #2

11. It was her own fault that she had fallen in love with him.

12. She cursed herself for lowering her guard and letting him into her life.

13. When she came to her senses again she cut off all contact with him. It had not been easy, but she had steeled herself.

14. She did not have a grain feeling left, because it would have been the same as bleeding to death.

15. His attitude had always been that if a woman clearly indicated that she did not want anything more to do with him, he would go away.

16. She liked her tattoos, especially the dragon on her left shoulder blade.

17. The driver was a rasta, and the bus sound system was playing "No woman No cry" full blast. 

Qoute #36

"you only bleed for me like a new tattoo
when i give you pain, you want it more and more
and you left me with a scar when the pain is gone." -  Crisena

This is about tattoo addiction. Once you had one, you will crave for another tattoo. The pain that the tattoo gives you is so addicting that you always wanted to tattoo yourself.Almost being a masochist.

In love, for some they wanted to feel the pain. Some may have wanted having a fight then "kiss and makeup". They love the sweetness of being together after a fight. But it hurts having silent war with your love ones. You just cant wait for the time that you two will be okay again in time. But just like a new tattoo, some people wanted to fell pain rather than just expressing love and being positive and happy. Some may be used to it and the pleasure it gives makes them want it more and more. But as a drawback with these process, the pain that caused the couple to fight and quarrel will then leave a scar to its heart and will be permanent forever.

Excerpt #1

1. "But steel drums fascinated her. It seemed hardly feasible that anyone could tune an oil barrel, and even less credible that the barrel could make music like nothing else in the world. She thought those sounds were like magic"

2. "Her studies had been unsystematic and without any real objective"

3. "He was not in love with her-they were about as unlike as two people could possibly be- but he was very fond of her and really missed her, exasperating as she sometimes was. He had though their liking was mutual. In short, he felt like an idiot. "

4. "Finally he made a decision. If she thought so little of him that she could not even bring herself to greet him when they saw each other, then their friendship was apparently over and the damage irreparable. He would make no attempt to contact her again."

5. "She had bought the garments that she never needed before."

6. "Just how dangerous is she?"

7. "He loved puzzles and riddles. To him, the answer was always obvious"

8. " Mathematics was actually a logical puzzle with endless variations-riddles that could be solved. The trick was not to solve the arithmetical problem. The trick was to understand combinations of various rules that made it possible to solve any mathematical problem whatsoever"

9. "The problem was simply that even if they counted until the end of time, they would never be able to test all existing numbers-they are inifinite"

10. "That was very brave but awfully stupid.."

Qoute #35

"You wake up in the morning thinking what life can offer for you
Chances may be rare but once life gives it to you today
It is for you to grab it or regret it in the evening before you go to sleep" - Crisena

Its living your life to the fullest and grabbing all opportunity at hand. Everything that will make you happy, just do it so you will not regret it later on.

Qoute #34

"Your simple acts always changes my life... now i am to thank you that i realized i have to go on this track.. you will always be the best catalyst and no one can replace you... stay with me forever... please dont leave me again... or ill live in hell and say hello to death one more time..." - Crisena

I am happy with the thought that he was just there. Living without him is like living in hell so i dont want to go back there anymore, so as long as i keep him, ill be happy whatever the status.

Qoute #33

"The most powerful vitamin cannot be bought inside a drug store... yours was the most powerful dose that last a lifetime .. thanks for the dose.." -  Crisena

The (dose) feeling is like connection and happiness. You have shared the happiness of ones person and was given to the other. It was not selfish, it is giving love.

Qoute #32

"If its symmetrical then its wonderful..." - Crisena

If the feeling is mutual then its good and its magical.

Qoute #31

"I love it when you tame me... you are the only person who can do that... my personal cannabis..." - Crisena

Cannabis, as defined by my friend, is under the downers drugs. I was so hyper sometimes due to my id and he was the only one to tame me... nobody can do these to me: who can lock you inside an elevator? Well he does..

Qoute #30

"There will always be that something in you that will keep me light... keep in touch with me until death..." - Crisena

There was this special person that no matter what he does, still he is special, may it be positive or negative, nothing has changed. And just by merely talking with him, makes me really happy.. and i wish it will stay long up until i die...

Qoutes #29

"I still cant find a way to let go of you... whatever happens ill stay... no matter how painful the ending... ill stay..." - Crisena

There comes a time that i really find it hard to analyze how i wanted to stay with someone uncertain. At first i was getting opinions from my friends and they gave me negative thoughts about it. And i realized i should not talk about it with them, i know they are concerned but i realized, it is me who can answer to all of my questions.

The only question is: where am i going to be happy? If waiting will make me happy, then ill wait. If staying will be happy even if ill be walking blind and walk blurry, ill stay. No matter what happens, ill stay, even if the risk is high and painful.

I know i dont have to expect anything from you, but as long as we talk and i feel you stay, i feel fine. I know i may do something wrong along the way, but i will try my best to make things right.

Whatever the ending, ive decided to fight, now lets get back to business. No expectations, no limits and no deadline, just pure bliss...

Psalm 88

O LORD, the God who saves me,

day and night I cry out before you.
2 May my prayer come before you;
turn your ear to my cry.
3 For my soul is full of trouble
and my life draws near the grave.
4 I am counted among those who go down to the pit;
I am like a man without strength.
5 I am set apart with the dead,
like the slain who lie in the grave,
whom you remember no more,
who are cut off from your care.
6 You have put me in the lowest pit,
in the darkest depths.
7 Your wrath lies heavily upon me;
you have overwhelmed me with all your waves.
Selah
8 You have taken from me my closest friends
and have made me repulsive to them.
I am confined and cannot escape;
9 my eyes are dim with grief.
I call to you, O LORD, every day;
I spread out my hands to you.
10 Do you show your wonders to the dead?
Do those who are dead rise up and praise you?
Selah
11 Is your love declared in the grave,
your faithfulness in Destruction [d] ?
12 Are your wonders known in the place of darkness,
or your righteous deeds in the land of oblivion?
13 But I cry to you for help, O LORD;
in the morning my prayer comes before you.
14 Why, O LORD, do you reject me
and hide your face from me?
15 From my youth I have been afflicted and close to death;
I have suffered your terrors and am in despair.
16 Your wrath has swept over me;
your terrors have destroyed me.
17 All day long they surround me like a flood;
they have completely engulfed me.
18 You have taken my companions and loved ones from me;
the darkness is my closest friend.

Qoute #28

"I wish that when i get the chance to be reincarnated.. i already found you... so i will never be lost again and die..." -  Crisena

This is about hoping to find true love. 

There are many faces of love and true love is really hard to find and define.

For me, true love is when you symmetrically love and need each other... your mutual in ways and you both think of each others benefits. The kind of benefits you share is priceless and must not be counted over time. Its genuine... its unique and rare... 

Maybe, true love may not be seen in positive ways only... true love can also be seen when you are mutually hurt in times that you accidentally hurt each other... we are human and we are bound to make mistakes so sometimes we misinterpret each other... but for true love.. the case is that, no matter how painful it was... still at the end of the day he/she can tell himself/herself... i cannot live without him/her and i don't want him/her to get out of my life...

For true love, you cannot give too much nor too less, it must be equal. This is the hardest part of being in love. There will be expectations on both sides, and the other may be higher which makes it complicated. But for true love, we compromise. Its not how many you give as long as one compromise. If the other just give up, then it will never work out. Its tiring to work out things, but for true love, you always find ways to make it work.

When things does not work out and you broke up with each other, as long as the break up is mutual then its true love. It may be a little confusing but yes, it is true love. Why? Because both of you wanted that your partner be happy rather than staying with you. You know you cannot give what they wanted so you let go. It may also hurt a bit but as long as its mutual for both of you, it is still true love. And hey, the saying "friends can be lovers but lovers cannot be friends" will not apply to true love because if you value the person so much, you wont consider the negative things he/she have done to you so you can always consider him/her as friends. It may take a while since we need to have time to accept things but being friends with an ex is true love. The only risk is that, it must be mutual that they will only be friends and no more than that. But it will always be up to both sides if how they can manage as being friends only.

People only see love in positive ways like if couples are sweet, loving, caring, understanding, etc... all positive descriptions you can think of is considered as true love. But then again, we should also look at its negative side like pain, agony, depression, etc... all negative. Only that for negative, the way to make things work is when you mutually stay positive with each other even if things become negative.

Qoute #27

"I hand you a knife and you stab me to death..." - Crisena

 The pain feels like someone is stabbing you every minute... unlike when someone kills you with a gun, you die immediately but with a knife, the pain is felt deeply into your heart. 

I thought that the golden rule will always apply that on how much you give will be returned back to you.. unfortunately it was not happening with me.. the more i give and the less they value me.. the less i give and the more i feel they value me more as a person...

And sometimes when you cant carry the pain anymore while that special someone is stabbing you with his knife, you just prayed to die already... you dont want to live again.. if death can save you from hurting...

Qoute #26

"The power of enjoying life lies to every taken opportunity and risk; never live with all the "what if's". Live life to the most craziest and dangerous thing you could do since we would die anyways so why be afraid to live with death. I guarantee you it would be twice as fun than living with norms and shit" - Crisena

We live by norms and with these it put so much pressure on us. Having a pressured life is not fun at all.


Lets take for example like marriage. Everyone is planning their future ahead like at this certain age i must be married, have 2 children and so on and so forth. Now the time has come that you dont have a stable relationship by the age of 28.. panic..pressure and a lot of stress was put on you and this leaves you with a negative aura. Live life as simple as "so what if i dont get married, so what if i dont have a child". With these mind set, you are relax and you dont put so much pressure on yourself and that gives a positive aura and may attract positive outputs. In this case, you can find some alternative solution like you can adopt a baby or have a pet of your own. It may sound very sad to "normal" people but then as long as you are happy with it there is nothing wrong. Yes, it is normal to have a family with a husband, a wife and a child and yours was You alone and an adopted child/dog... but as long as your happy and contented with your life there must be no problem. Live with these and you'll be enjoying the outcome.


Another example is like you do what you wanted in life whatever it maybe, how awkward or how unusual it may be as long as you really wanted it.For we adventurous people, we say "So why be afraid to die, when you don't even know what will happen. At least i have done the things that i wanted rather than i choose to sit back and regret that i never even tried it." In short and simple way - Break the rules (depends on the risk it may bring if its low then go, if its high then think twice first before risking your life.)


Well there are too many examples to mention, bottomline here is that.. go for the thing that you wanted so you wont regret it later on. Live life to the fullest so you'll be proud to say "I died a blissful death". And never forget to thank God for everything that He has given you. Appreciate the so called "gift of life". We are bounded by wanting the things that are not given to us and this gives so much pressure on us like material things, car, house, clothes and so much more. If we try to learn to enjoy what we have and just be thankful for what blessing He had given us, everyday is a brand new day and you will really feel happy. Love your mom, your dad and your siblings and always appreciate them. Always think that this is your last day on earth and giving love is the only remembrance you could give to your love ones. Love everyone that makes you happy and learn to appreciate them. And never forget to thank God and ask for His guidance. Living this life is a wonderful blessing.

Qoute #25

"Its harder to smile when you know you are about to cry when crying is the only solution for me to take you back...
but then i realized it would be better if i say
its harder to cry when i am about to smile...
when smiling is the only solution for me to thank you for coming back..." - Crisena

Before i experience saying good bye with someone so special in my heart. I decided that when we see each other face to face, i want that he will never see me cry or sad because we have to part ways. I want that last moments be memorable even though its painful. I know it would be the last time i could see his face, the last time i could talk with him, so i see to it that every moment we share are just happy moments even though its also killing me. The time that we are about to really let go of each other, i really had a hard time putting on a mask on my face just to be able to smile.

Time pass and i was surprised that he was coming back. This is the time when i told myself that its much harder to cry now when all i think of is smile since i never have thought of him coming back to my life again. The old flame is still there.. and nothing has changed. I am happy now that at least, we are still able to talk again. As simple as that, no pressure and no expectations... just the mere fact that you are just there for me and you will never ever let me go again, i am happy... this is what i call "eternal bliss".

Qoute #24

"I can hear angel's voices.. softly crying for someone she have loved and lost.. does it hurt so bad for an angel to cry?" - Crisena

Every woman has the most precious tears that must not be shed for someone that is not worth crying for.

Qoute #23

"Sometimes whatever you do, whatever you say, whatever words and expressions you give if the other have set their minds different than yours then everything will be useless.. and nothing will ever change it.." - Crisena

The hardest thing to reverse is a mind set. It takes a good psychological skills to be able to reverse the situation. If for instance you dont know how to psych out a person, then the end point here is that you will never ever convince him/her to change their minds.

Qoute #22

"Everyday that i wake up, i dig up my grave.. i dont know how deep it was now.. i just know that days pass without you feels like dying young.." - Crisena

When the most important person in your life left you behind, everyday seems to be like having business deals with death. You know you dont want to die yet but the mere fact that the special person left you becomes the main reason why you should agree to death to take your soul.

Death can see that you are in deep pain and agony, so death will be certain that you really need to take a rest and better die rather than seeing you having a hard time. That is how concern death is with you in this crucial time so its either you take it or you leave it.

Qoute #21

1. "Will i ever find a killer that does not kill?" - A lover that will never hurt you

2. "If i hand you a gun, will you pull the trigger?" - If i give you my heart, will you break it?

3. "If only killing somebody out of your mind is as easy as ctrl-atl-delete then i could have shutdown now and sleep" - Insomnia

4. "Not only dead people are cold.." - Silent War

5. "you are priceless.. i cant even buy your name.." - Someone that cannot be yours. For girls, you cannot be their wife so you cant have their surnames on.

5 Faces of Death - Crisena

1. SIGHT

"You only see what you wanted to see.." she said and i crazily answer "then that is why i am blind now...?"


"That is because you dont want to open it again. you are not blind its just that your eyes are closed.."


"Did she said my eyes were closed?? but why? Am i afraid of something that is why i do not want to open my eyes again?Or am i just sleeping trying to forget things i do not want to remember?"

2. HEARING

"Why she is deaf now?" she asked.
"She is not deaf its just that she does not want to pay attention.." i answered.


3. SMELL

"You only smell what is good for your nose.. you dont want to smell garbages." she said.

"Well how do you comfort your nose if you smell something's fishy?"i asked.

"You cover it up with your hands." she replied.

4. TASTE

"How sure of you that you have put all the ingredients here?" the angry chef asked.

"I should know since i always follow the right steps to perfect it." i answered.

"No you dont.. it does not taste good enough for you to pass." the chef replied.

"I wont believe you for i have never forgotten to put love to that." i said.

"i should say it was a lost love then.."

5. TOUCH

"Do you hear the beat of my heart?" i said.

"No i dont.." he replied.

"You will not since you never tried to touch it."

Qoute #20

"this is a one way street im takin
and at the end of the road is a death toll
a death toll..
where i can find this pill to kill my brain
and the words you gave for my heart to stop" - Crisena

When the most important person left you behind, the feeling is like you wanted to die. You feel lost and you feel alone. You only see death coming near you and you loose hope.

Qouted from my friends

"ill give you the pill to kill my brain and the words from my heart to stop" - Lolo

This is a death pill where it will let your brain to stop functioning and so do your heart. Your heart will stop beating and eventually you became uninterested with anybody else. All you want was the person who left you alone in the dark. Even after all the heart aches, this person is the only way to save you from death. Nothing is more important to you than he/she coming back to your life

Qoute #19

"Don't try to heal a battle scar, for it will always be a mark of death..." - Crisena'

When we fall in love and we encounter problems in our relationship, we tend to fight for that love. But sometimes we fail to save it and it leaves us a battle scar.

People usually hide the pain in their hearts. They smile even though their hearts are aching.

Moving on must not be these way. Cry as much as you could. Shout as much as you could. Just be sure that after all the crying and shouting, when you get out of your room, you will be relieved and say to yourself you are ready to move on.

Death is sweet only when you accept it. As long as you fight against death, it will only lead you to great depressions. Embrace death, accept the fact that the love has died. Once you do these, then it will be easier for you to move on.

Qoute #18

"Win or lose, just trigger it all..so if you die today.. at least you've used up your bullets" - Crisena

In life, it is better to always give your best shot to things that you really want to achieve. At least when you unexpectedly die, you dont have any regrets.


Live life to the fullest. One love be happy.

Qoute #17

"the only way to drive my car is for me to accelarate the gas..." - Crisena

The only way to move on when you are hurt by your lover is to move forward.

Qoute #16

"i was buried alive 6 feet under the ground... shot straight on the head and die young" - Crisena

When someone hurt you, it feels like they shot you in the head with their killing bullets. Since you are aware of these then that is why you are "burried alive". You know that this person will hurt you but you still keep on loving him, then it would feel like you are letting yourself to die young.

Qoute #15

"just be sure they catch you so you would not get any bruises..."-Crisena

Before you fall in love, just be sure that the person you are in love with will catch you when you fall. Or else, it could really hurt you a lot.

Qoute #14

"I found the key notes to measure my heart beat- It plays" -Crisena

A# D7-B7 D

Guitar playing has been a part of my everyday life. I may not be as good as other guitar players, but as long as i can play all of my favorite songs, i am happy.

I also wish that someday i could play a song for you.


The key notes signifies a hidden code "I M U" which means i miss you.


A# is for the letter I. The sound of the letter I is like a high pitch A.


D7-B7 chords when combined will form a letter M.


D chord consist of a U shape that makes the letter U.

Qoute #13

"i saw you walk into me again
blood rush coming in
i gotta give in
to this calling


think about it my precious
my mind draws back to this pleasure
i cannot wait for tomorrow

overkill and self destruct one bullet at a time" - Crisena

This is inspired from the song Outsider of "A Perfect Circle".


This qoute is about somebody who goes out of your life and comes back to you when you least expect it. You never saw him coming back and your not ready with it so there is a feeling of the "blood rush".


Since that is what you wanted so your mind tells you to give in exactly to it. The pleasure of having him around again gives you that same old feeling of being in love with this person. You cannot wait for what will happen next and you are so excited that every minute you feel like your minds gonna blow. You heart beats so fast, your mind thinks a lot that makes the "overkill". Again, by being in love with the person that hurt you before, always remember that there will always be a chance to self-destruct and die again; now much harder and more painful since what hurts you before will be added to the power of his next bullet. This time you can even die by "head shot" using his own personal shot gun and that will be his parting words. You dont want to hear it again right?

Qoute #12

"i saw you walk away from me
and i was afraid youll never look back again
ive tasted this before..
never again to take this pill...
that will put my heart to stop..


look at me..
can you see im dying now..
will you save me from death..
hear me..
kiss me..
let me feel you again in my arms..


hold me tight..
and never let me go..
o how i miss those words that makes me light..
words that puts on this face; an eternal smile..
a sight only angels can see..
harmony whenever your here with me.." - Crisena

The first stanza is about someone walking away in our lives. Ofcourse we do not want to let go of them since they are very important to us. We experience people walking in and out of our lives and its really hard for us to move on when they left. The pill im talking about here is a metaphor of the "death pill" something to kill your brains and stop from functioning and when the brain stop to function and so do your heart. This is an excerpt from my special friends qoute Thanks for the qoute.

"Ill give you the pill to kill your brain and the words for your heart to stop". - Lolo

The second stanza is about asking him to look back and see how painful it is that he is now out of your world. You want that special person to save you from being hurt and from dying. You want his kisses, his love, and the feeling that he wont let go of you again.


The third stanza is about missing that special someone, and that he is the only person that can make you happy. Its like even when you have died, only that person can save you and make you happy and live in heaven.

Qoute #11

"Even if i see the light in you

I never have thought this is the first step to hell

You look so much like an innocent child

Untouched.. quiet and calm..." - Crisena

When we are in love with a new person, we do not consider them to hurt us. We are so blinded of our being "in-love". We see them as innocent as they can be.


In order for us to keep away from the "stairway to hell", we have to guard our hearts. We can love other people but we also have to leave something for ourselves. We dont have to give them all our hearts.

Qoute #10

"Sometimes you dont know that death can see you

Dont try to look at it in the eye..

But then whatever you do..

If its your time.. it'll be yours..

Ill give it to you.. how and when will depend about how i want to see you die.." - Crisena

 Sometimes since we are so happy with our lives, we are not aware that anytime we are going to be hurt. By this time, since we are not ready with being hurt, so we feel so much pain in our hearts.


Even if we are hurt, we have to try to reverse the situation. So we dont look at it directly to "death's eye". But then sometimes, the pain is deep and whatever we do still we feel so down and we feel like dying anytime.


The more we experience pain,the more we are down. Whatever it is that makes us down will give us death. So if we stay on our low and down state then we will surely die a painful death. We have to at least do something to keep us away from being hurt. Fighting with death is the hardest thing on earth but as long as we stay connected with God, we can be saved.

Qoute #9

"that was such a welcoming remark..

ready for the next bullet..

its a pleasure to meet another of your kind..

to offer another kiss of death.." - Crisena

In life, sometimes we fail in our relationship and we meet someone new. When we feel that we finally meet the one, we can feel that strong welcoming remark...that extraordinary feeling of being in love.

But then, being involve with somebody is like putting a bullet in your head. It is a risk we do when we fall in love, we have to be ready that anytime we will be hurt and we will experience the kiss of death again. But on top of that, we know that we are to experience bliss which is more important.

We thank those people who come to our lives, we meet another of their kind, the kind of people that makes us happy.

Qoute #8

"the most rarest eyes are yours...

will it ever look at me again?

will i ever see it blink to me again??

or will i just always miss those smoky eyes forever..



i am calling you..

give me a chance to love again..

and live forever young to heaven with you.." - Crisena

I was so in love with this guy who had the rarest eyes... when i say rare its because his eyes are the only ones that can see the deeper side of me. He knows me very well and deeply understand every little thing about me. He appreciate me a lot in my own little ways.


Unfortunately, we are going on our separate ways due to complications on our relationship. I am wondering if i can see those eyes again? I wish he would look back on me again. I wish to see his eyes blinking at me again. Those smoky eyes he possess i missed so much.. but since i still dont know if i will still get that chance to see him again, im always wondering if it will look back at me again.

 I want him to know how much i miss him, how much i wanted more of him and how much i love him.. and i want fate to do it for me.. i want fate to give us the chance to love again... i wish that God will give me his wonderdul gift.. and that is YOU..

Qoute #7

"Walk with me to death and we'll live together.." - Crisena

I was so in love that i wanted both of us to die (not so literally die) so we can live in heaven and eternal happiness.

Qoute #6

"That soft, warm voice keeps my heart thrilled..

will i hear it one more time??
whisper to my ear those words that makes me light..

keep me floating to air..

keep me light.." - Crisena

When we are in love, we always feel like floating in air and we feel light. Even their simple voice can do give that feeling. The mere fact that they are talking with us give us that wonderful feeling and that you feel like you wanted more and more.


The feeling is very light that we can imagine them talking softly in our ears.

Qoute #5

"The first time we fight was an introduction to death...

it was just simple bruises.. yet it hurts.." - Crisena

Usually when we meet new friends, or new partners, the first time we fight with them are the hardest since we still dont know what to do.


We are paranoid and we do not know what steps to do in order to win them back. Since it was just new, then the pain is not as deep as compared to the old friends we have.

Qoute #4

"I could die right now by not seeing those pretty face.. but then i remembered...how??..

i guess i wont have the chance to live again..." - Crisena

Sometimes i missed somebody so much i am dying to see them face to face.. but then there are times that even though i wanted to see them that bad, there will always be that barrier that wont let it since they are unreachable e.g. they are out-of-town or they can be sleeping right now; any reason may do as long as they are inaccessible.

So by that, i think i can't live any moment now just by the thought of not seeing them that time.

Qoute #3

"You are a time stopper demon...

That was such an evil eye you possess..

so wicked and powerful.." - Crisena

This is about jealousy. If i am jealous with somebody since my special someone is eyeing on them i treat them as my enemy.


If a girl passed my standards, then she is wicked and powerful that even I could not resist.They are the demon who possess that evil look and eye catching smile that are also beautiful to my eyes.

Qoute #2

"You are my kryptonite..the one who can make my logical reasoning drop down to zero.." - Crisena

In my life there will always be that somebody who can make me feel weak.. this are the people that are closest to my heart. Whenever i am with them, it feels like im being illogical and all i want is to have fun with them.


When i say that my logical reasoning is zero then that means im being stupid since i am in love. Love is a good, i cant help but to fall from it.

Qoute #1

"Thunderstorm and lightning bolts coming out of a clear blue sky

Angels and Devils started to fight

Help me war angels... save me from death...

Cast away this demons...

Protect me...

i am not yet ready to die.." - Crisena

Sometimes in life, we have to struggle on to something. When we are on our dark days, we can experience storms. We fight against our problems, and that is our angels and devils fighting as my metaphors.


We ask our war angels to protect us from death... we dont want to lose our battle so we need to cast away all the demons or bad vibes that are coming to us in order to pull us down.


We ask for our dear Lord to protect us and keep us away from harm since we still want to live.. we dont want to die.


Death here can be the fall down of each one of us. When we have problems and we dont resolve it then death is inevitable.