Spontaneous Dance

But isn't this a dance?
Isn't all of this a dance?
Isn't that what we do with words?
Isn't that what we do when we talk, when we spar, when we make plans or leave it to chance?

Some of it is choreographed. 
Some if the steps have been done for ages.
And the rest --
the rest is spontaneous.

The rest should be decided on the floor, in the moment, before the music ends.

Irene's Battle Dress for Sherlock's Encounter

Harry: Will you take the case?
Sherlock: What case? Pay her. Now. And in full. As Ms. Adler remarks in her masthead, "know when you are beaten."
Mycroft: She doesn't want anything. She got in touch, she informed us that the photographs existed. She indicated that she had no intention to use them to extort either money or favor.
Sherlock: Oh, a power play. A power play with the most powerful family in Britain. Now that is a dominatrix. Oo, this is getting rather fun, isn't it.

Irene Adler (Lara Pulver): Kate, we're going to have a visitor. I'll need a bit of time to get ready. Kate: A long time?
Irene Adler: Ages.

Watson: Punch you?
Sherlock: Yes. Punch me. In the face. Didn't you hear me?
Watson: I always hear "punch me in the face" when you're speaking, but it's usually subtext. Sherlock: Okay, I think we've done now, John.
Watson: You want to remember, Sherlock, I was a soldier. I killed people.
Sherlock: You were a doctor! Watson: I had bad days!

Kate: What are you going to wear?
Irene Adler: My battle dress.
Kate: Lucky boy.

Irene Adler: I'm sorry to hear that you've been hurt. I don't think Kate caught your name.
Sherlock: I'm so sorry, I'm—

Irene Adler: Oh, it's always hard to remember an alias when you've had a fright. Isn't it? {she snatches his clerical collar} There now. We're both defrocked. Mr. Sherlock Holmes.
Sherlock: Ms. Adler, I presume.
Irene Adler: Look at those cheekbones. I could cut myself slapping that face. would you like me to try?  Do you know the big problem with a disguise, Mr. Holmes? However hard you try, it's always a self-portrait.
Sherlock: You think I'm a vicar with a bleeding face?     
Irene Adler: No, I think you're damaged, delusional and believe in a higher power. In your case it's yourself

Day 1: Traditions and Miracles

[DATE]: Nov 11, 2013
[CASE #]: 1
[TITLE]: Meet the Holy Spirit
[PROFILE]: Bad Vices, Bipolar, Bad Relationships

I woke up depressed today.

I think this is just another depressive episode.. as usual.. i don't know where it triggered unless i analyze my brain where it started.

That's how i view myself when i am having attacks.. i know it was triggered but what?

So okay, i finally realized where it was coming.
I cant get what i want, my selfish desires as human being.. my needs not met.

When i do not know yet how to deal with selfish desires, i get confused!! Like it was hell all over my head, demons lurking all around!

I just want to shut off myself from thinking!

But I am happy i was exposed to godly friends who guides me on the straight path now.. I've been travelling to hell for almost 7 years and i think the last ride was with my yin yang. Funny.

Well i learned that, Gods's plan is better than our dreams. We may desire about things, but if its not His will, it will never happen. Well there's an exception though as with regards to free will, you can have the result that you wanted but that only gives you a natural result. The best result is when you let God do His will to you, the result are supernatural.

So being that positive, i think about it today but it was really hard to handle my depression today...

Since it was Tuesday, and i usually go to Victory for the Small group, i hurried to Galeria to attend the service.

During the time i'm going there, i cried.. part of me wants to just stay in my room and cry but i was thinking it would not help my negativity. I tried my best to attend the service and it did not fail me.

Before the service ends, the Pastor said to close our eyes and feel the Holy Spirit. From there i felt a cold air that touched my heart and it felt like it healed me miraculously.. My Service Group leader told me it was the Holy Spirit.

I feel so blessed.. and i want to claim that it totally took away my bipolar to this very special day.

Also, i was given the chance to talk to my Service Group Leader and clear up my thoughts about my confusion as to how i will know if it was God talking to me or if it was the devil persuading me to do bad things.

The only direct way to get His answer are through the bible.
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[Section from Daily Bread]

Q: What tradition is Jesus radically altering your life?
A: "When God interceded in our lives, when He lets us experience Him, our lives - our very view of the world - will change."

It seems that from this day on, i should expect that God will change me into a new person, my old self be gone... wild days are over :) 

Excerpt #3

21. “Truly powerful people don't explain why they want respect. They simply don't engage someone who doesn't give it to them.” 

22. “The more independent you are of him, the more interested he will be.” 

23. “Men don't respond to words. What they respond to is "no contact".” 

24. “The most attractive quality of all is dignity.” 

25. “Until he gives you a reason not to trust him, behave as though you trust him.”

26. “Men control the world, but women control the men.”

Excerpt #2

11. “He should accept me as I am!” says the woman who is too nice.
Accept you? Oh no, sister. Slap yourself. He should want you
madly. Acceptance has nothing to do with it. He accepts a
doormat. But he desires his dreamgirl.” 

12. “The bitch is an empowered woman who derives tremendous strength from the ability to be an independent thinker, particularly in a world that still teaches women how to be self-abnegating. This woman doesn't live someone else's standards, only her own.” 

13. “If you can't convince 'em, confuse 'em.” 

14. “UncondiTional love is a beauTiful Thing. JusT be sure To
give iT after your conditions have been meT ” 

15. “You always want what you cant have” 

16. “Men can shift gears from romantic to practical - and so can the bitch.”

17. “Be an independent thinker at all times, and ignore anyone who attempts to define you in a limiting way.” 

18. “That's the big picture, your happiness. And health. You should never care what a man thinks of you -- until he demonstrates to you that he cares about making you happy. If he isn't trying to make you happy, then send him back from "whence" he came because winning him over will have no benefit. At the end of the day, happines, joy...and yes...your emotional stability...those comprise the only measuring stick you really need to have.” 

19. “When you live life with him or without him, that is when he will accept and value you for who you are.” 

20. “He must feel that you choose to be with him, not that you need to be with him.”

Excerpt #1

1. When you receive the present, you no longer spend your time dreaming about being somewhere else.

2. In order to find the present for yourself, think of the times where you were the happiest and most successful.

3. When you are fully engaged in what you are doing your mind does not wander and you are happy. You are intent only on what is happening at the moment.

4. Being in the present means focusing on what is happening right now! It means appreciating the gifts you are offered everyday.

5. The more you look at what is wrong, the less energy and confidence you have. That's why you find yourself in a bad situation, it is important to look for what is right,even if its hard to find. Then appreciate and build on it. 

6. Living in the present, learning from the past and planning for the future is not all there is.

It is only when you live with purpose and respond to whats important about the present, past and future, that it all has meaning.

Excerpt #1

1. You'll never win a zombie heart
2. I love you and we will fall together, i will never leave you
3. With true love, there will always be a change of heart
4. This was the key to the cure, you start to connect with us..
5. In the end, the wall between us will break and we will live happily ever after.

Excerpt #2

11. Many people never get to become high performers because their managers concentrate on catching them doing wrong.

12. Performance review is an ongoing process, not something you do only once a year.

13. Their behavior is not OK. They are OK. Eliminate the behavior and keep the people. 

14. If you are first tough on the behavior and then supportive on the person, then it works.

15. Tell people what they did wrong, tell people how you feel about it, and reminding people that they are valuable and worthwhile.

Excerpt #1

1. If you cant tell me that you'd like to be happening, you dont have a problem yet. You are just complaining. A problem only exist if there is a difference between what is actually happening and what you desire to be happening.

2. People who feel good about themselves produce good results

3. Help people reach their full potential catch them doing something right.

4. One Minute goal to read on one minute. 

5. Since he does not attack me as a person - only my behavior- its easier for me not to become defensive.

6. Realize when the reprimand is over, its over 

7. the best minute i spend is the one i invest in people

8. how long would he want to bowl if there were no pins?

9. Everyone is a potential winner, some people are disguised as losers, don't let their appearances fool you.

10. Look at your goals, loot at your performance, see if your behavior matches your goal.

Art of Persuasion

1. Persuasion is just like any other art form or practice. There will always be time when you fail because you made a miscalculation or a wrong step. If and when this happens you must carry on. Learn from your mistake and recalculate. Once you have taken the time to step back, level your head and recalculate, you will know whether or not it is a lost cause or if a new plan of attack is to be put on. In simpler terms, try and try again. Don't let failure keep you down.

2. You must make sense with your target otherwise indirect and unclear contact can mislead your target and cause your plan to derail. E.g. Dont hesitate to call is much better said as call me tomorrow. This direct and positive approach ensures an understanding between parties and move you one step closer to the goal of the game.

3. Timing is of an essence. A fatigue mind is much more submissive than that of a well rested mind. Try to approach your target after something mentally taxing, such as studying for a test, a long day at work, or working on a project. More often than not, they will agree because they are in an exhausted state.

4. Knowing what your target likes will always give you the advantage in the game of persuasion. It may even serve as a protection or a get out of jail free card when most needed.

5. While speaking to your target keep your language poetic. Its not necessary what you say, but how you say it.

6. A common mistake is confusing understanding with acceptance in terms of point of view. It is vital to your game that you never allow mutual understanding to your agenda. Your agenda is to change the targets view to match your own, not the other way around. Understand them but don't believe them.

7. It is said that people who show weakness get killed by those who lack them.

8. Emotions played correctly can win someone over.

9. Always keep your focus on the end result.

10. A perfect character isn't only unrealistic, they are boring. While lack of realism is easily forgiven, there is no excuse for being boring.