Friday, April 25, 2014

Teachings

God teaches me many things.

It was really hard to be as perfect as God, but through His grace, this is all possible.

I understand why people say they feel judged.. When people do wrong or bad things, we do not need to tell them they are wrong, we just have to show them. We have to be a living example that doing wrong things will not make them happy in the long run. And God is the only one that can judge us.

I say my sorry for those people who felt that I judged them. Its just that, I am still learning my craft, and I do not know yet how to handle it.

Humbling down. One of the hardest thing i ever learned in this walk. It is hard to humble down and say sorry.. I live life never saying this words.. now I have to learn to say it.. sincerely.

I hurt people, and they hurt me too.. but that does not mean I need to take on revenge. Even if I do not understand what it can do to me, being humble and forgiving just seems to be very important.

I wish I was able to learn this early on, but again, I have to move forward. Next time, Ill be more loving and more forgiving.

I do not know what's in store for me, and I hope that God would find a way to ease the pain my old life has caused me.

Beginning of change is the hardest step so one can enjoy the rest. This too shall pass.


Friday, April 18, 2014

All or Nothing

Sometimes I cannot understand how God moves in our lives.

He let me experience the abundance of having everything, and now He is letting me experience nothing at all.
Everything was taken from me, but I am holding on to the thought that this is still in the process of my victory.

As for the story of Job, God blessed him with everything, but He took everything away too. Job did not stop worshiping and praising God until the day God decided to really take Him out of his misery and pain. That is what I am hoping for.

I trust the Lord that one day, as long as I walk with Him, ill be forever happy and never to cry again. Ill be victorious!

Surrendering to God was hard because you are living in a world where people are not walking the same path as yours. The narrow road is not something easy to take, but it will all be worth it in the end.

My past is gone and dead, i am new and alive once more. The journey to eternal happiness is at my hand already, I just have to wait for the break God will give me where He would tell me "Never to return again, this is the life I offer you, a life with me forever" :)

The feeling that all my sins are gone and I am just dealing with all the consequences of it, feels really refreshing. Its like you are cleaning your house and you are just checking anything dirty left from it, but in the end, the house is clean enough to make more room to happiness!!! I am so excited for the day God will clean everything in me!! I am actually clean already, well, super clean I guess :)

No more trauma of the past, no more bitterness in my heart, no more pain, nothing to hide. I am bold in your eyes O Lord. I feel so free and happy :)

Thank you Lord for all the happiness, from there i learned to give and thank you too for the pain, from there i learn to humble myself.

My love, if you will come back to me, I will never let you go again. If God's hand is holding yours too, I know one day we will meet again, just the same way He did when we first met.

I love my God, and I know He will make everything possible to make me the happiest person on earth and on Heaven above.