Old testament - New Testament - Revelation

Have you question how God is all knowing? 

And why did he allowed things to happen?

If he is all-knowing, don't he know that Adam and Eve would sin, or David will commit adultery or he will destroy the world in the time of Noah? Or why He let bad things happen to us?

I was asking myself, why? If he know all these things, then why would he let that happen?

Genesis 1:1 says "In the beginning..." 

and in the Book of Genesis the first thing God made was "the light".

The next stories in the Old testament talks about war, wrath, plagues, adultery, idolatry... etc, all kinds of sin are there...

Then the New Testament talks about the life of Christ and the change He brought in the world.

With the New Testament, it talks about change from the Old Testament worldy ways. We can read here parables that can help us understand more about God.

We read the Bible to know and understand the Lord and His ways. A guide to a better life.

God revealed to me one thing and answered all my questions...

When He talks about the beginning in Genesis, he actually talks about a human life. When we are still a baby.. and the first thing we can see in life, as we open our eyes is light.

We grow up, we know God but how well do we know Him?

We tend to live in our worldy ways: sinful little ways of cheating, stealing and all other worldy sins.

But when we meet Christ.. our Old Testament in life will be changed to New Testament:

2 Corinthian 5:17

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!

So now when you meet Christ, you are already living in the New Testament and you know what is the part of the Revelation?

That is our death. 

Everyone is afraid to die.. and that is how you can feel when you read the Revelation but when you Know Christ, you'll know its a blissful ending.

Revelation 22:20

He who testifies to these things says " Yes, I am coming soon.Amen, come Lord Jesus" The grace of the Lord be with God's people. Amen.

And there, you meet Christ in heaven when we die. 

We live temporary in this world and the purpose on living here is to go through the Old Testament and have a worldy life, meet Christ and live in the New Testament and wait for the coming of your last day on Earth where you will meet God in the revelation of His Love for us. The death of our body in the world is incomparable with the life that is waiting for us in Heaven. So why do we fear death?

Perfect Love

1 John 4:18

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love

When someone told me about this verse, I always wonder if this is actually possible.

I even wonder if there is really perfect love..

When that person left me, i told myself.."So what was that verse for anyway??"

People will come and go.. yes.. only if you do not know how to perfectly love them.

No one will leave anyone if they understand how to truly love..

As for me, I guess I never learned to really love truly..

Because perfect love is when you understand how to truly Love God.

I asked myself, when I love God do I love the way He loves me?

I say No, because I hurt people... intentionally or unintentionally I did...

so there will be an answer to my question why they will leave.. because before I do not know how to truly love.

God bless me thy wisdom to truly learn to love, just as how He loves me...

Declaration of my Love for you Lord (my Psalms)

" I am exquisite" says my Lord.

"Dazzling, spotless, immaculate, superb..."

His love for me is perfect.

He is the greatest man. 

His silence is beautiful to my ears, the most beautiful hymn.. solemn..

He is my Alpha and Omega.

His soul is everlasting. His thoughts profound.

I adore Him.. my Lord, my All.

You are the man I am looking for all my life. The man that will never leave me,
will never hurt me, always honest, always loving and understanding.

I have found the perfect man in you! I finally found you,my Lord.

With you I will never be anxious, with you I shall not fear. 

I declare my Love for you and thank you for accepting me wholly, without any doubt,
even If I have wronged you, you stayed with me and start anew.

Pride and Arrogance Test

God was so good to answer that I have passed this crucial test. I thought I failed, but I won Victory.

I always thought that I am a very bad person and that I do not know how to seriously love somebody and I am too manipulative for them.

One of the people I loved before once told me, how I am not conforming with the moral laws and that I am too conceited and I am boring..

I was so hurt realizing that in the beginning. My life in hell had turned me into something that no one would ever want to be with for the rest of their lives.

I know he is right, God used him to make me realize how close enough I am to changing to be a better person.

I know I am a bad person and my logic was bad, I know that I am not the good person to be with.. but I tried my best to change to be a better person.

I never lied to anyone ever again, tried to really be honest and speak with my mind, tried to watch my words and kept myself humble even if at first it sucks to be not sinning... withdrawing from sin and keeping it to the right track was a challenge for someone like me.

I am used to lying to get what I want, used to cheating to get satisfied and used to not feeling any emotions whatsoever to other people.. I never cared genuinely.. but things turned upside down because God saved me and God will save anyone who genuinely get serious on changing.

I am sorry for being a bad person... this article had given me so much hope that I know I have changed for being the person God wants me to be. I thank God for making me feel I am in the right path now... and what I did with the previous person i loved.. was humility and genuine love.. I learned to let him go because I am still the wrong person at that time for him.. and I am not selfish enough to make him stay because I have no good thing to offer.

I pray to God.. that one day, I would finally find the right one for me.. but I have to be the right person first.

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/insight/201404/how-end-the-right-partner

"I suspect that what many decent people in such relationships or marriages don’t realize, until they have endured a very long stretch of unfairness, is that their arrogant partner entered the relationship expecting special consideration. Much like in a dating relationship in which the party who desires the other more must accommodate the other’s wishes, the arrogant spouse assumes you will do more than half the work to compensate for your lower desirability. Their expectation sounds unreasonable, but arrogant people are image builders not truth-seekers." === hahaha I am guilty of this, but i already change that. Thought the book "Why men love bitches" are a good read but not. Psychology of man and Psychology of God is wayyyyy to different. 

I would argue that neither the girlfriend nor the boyfriend in these scenarios is decent enough to marry. In each case, the person demeaned his or her lover. If the roles were reversed, you would never belittle anyone! Your worst headache might make you a bit short with the person, but never insulting. Their belittling behavior (including the use of the word “slut”—which a humble person would not use) signals their arrogance, a trait tied to deception and exploitation (5).  === so both of us were arrogant then. I thought this is normal to people being in love to outburst their emotions. But now I realized that yes for a humble person, he/she can never belittle anyone even if we are angry.

When you try to dump the person after an outburst like the one described above, he or she might argue that they said they were sorry and it was only one mistake. But while a humble person acknowledges your right to leave and does not interfere with it, the arrogant person has an image to defend.
The trait of humility is a must-have that undergirds sincerity and the promise of a fair marriage.
When you do find that sincere, humble, fair-minded person, you might be shocked to discover how sexy he or she is. It might be overwhelming to finally share a passion based on discovering the person in front of you—free from the conventional gender roles and judgments. There is nothing to fear, however, because the formula for communicating remains simple: You always mean what you say. === at least I know now, Ive done it right. I thought all along I am a bad person, but in the end, I passed the test of Pride and Arrogance.

Thank you Lord for the final proof. Thank you Lord for freeing me from torturing myself for thinking how bad I am.

Excerpt # 1

1. Just because someone stumbles and loses their way, does not meant they are lost forever.

2. And as frightening as it can be, that pain will make you stronger if you allow yourself to feel it. Embrace it. It will make you more powerful than you can ever imagine. The greatest gift we have is to bear their pain without breaking and it comes from your most human part - hope.

Why do we wake up in the morning?

The ultimate question I always ask and wonder everyday of my life.

Been having too many struggles lately and I am perplexed with what to do with everyday battles.

Battles where I lose and win... I stumble and fall and tried to get up again.

Why was life so complicated to live? Or one can decide to make it simple or complicated? Surrendering to God is never easy, i am not used to not having control over what I need and want to do. But being obedient seem to be the only thing that could save me from hurting.

What was the will of God for me?

I am almost done with pruning phase, it was a hard process to accept that I am but a really bad person full of bitterness, selfishness, self-centered bitch, narcist, pride.. almost all negative traits i have it.. but God wants me to overcome everything to be pure. I am not used to being a good girl, but as much as I want to be in the right path, I have to seriously change for the better.

I lost a lot of people during this journey, and i even lost myself to the thought of being a new person.. i never saw the light until God gave me wisdom that He loves me so much He would not want to risk me being hurt again.

This may be hard today, but i pray and have faith that tomorrow will bring a better day.

Vulnerability

"Vulnerability is not weakness. Vulnerability is our most accurate measurement of courage." - Brene Brown