God teaches me many things.
It was really hard to be as perfect as God, but through His grace, this is all possible.
I understand why people say they feel judged.. When people do wrong or bad things, we do not need to tell them they are wrong, we just have to show them. We have to be a living example that doing wrong things will not make them happy in the long run. And God is the only one that can judge us.
I say my sorry for those people who felt that I judged them. Its just that, I am still learning my craft, and I do not know yet how to handle it.
Humbling down. One of the hardest thing i ever learned in this walk. It is hard to humble down and say sorry.. I live life never saying this words.. now I have to learn to say it.. sincerely.
I hurt people, and they hurt me too.. but that does not mean I need to take on revenge. Even if I do not understand what it can do to me, being humble and forgiving just seems to be very important.
I wish I was able to learn this early on, but again, I have to move forward. Next time, Ill be more loving and more forgiving.
I do not know what's in store for me, and I hope that God would find a way to ease the pain my old life has caused me.
Beginning of change is the hardest step so one can enjoy the rest. This too shall pass.
Friday, April 25, 2014
Friday, April 18, 2014
All or Nothing
Sometimes I cannot understand how God moves in our lives.
He let me experience the abundance of having everything, and now He is letting me experience nothing at all.
Everything was taken from me, but I am holding on to the thought that this is still in the process of my victory.
As for the story of Job, God blessed him with everything, but He took everything away too. Job did not stop worshiping and praising God until the day God decided to really take Him out of his misery and pain. That is what I am hoping for.
I trust the Lord that one day, as long as I walk with Him, ill be forever happy and never to cry again. Ill be victorious!
Surrendering to God was hard because you are living in a world where people are not walking the same path as yours. The narrow road is not something easy to take, but it will all be worth it in the end.
My past is gone and dead, i am new and alive once more. The journey to eternal happiness is at my hand already, I just have to wait for the break God will give me where He would tell me "Never to return again, this is the life I offer you, a life with me forever" :)
The feeling that all my sins are gone and I am just dealing with all the consequences of it, feels really refreshing. Its like you are cleaning your house and you are just checking anything dirty left from it, but in the end, the house is clean enough to make more room to happiness!!! I am so excited for the day God will clean everything in me!! I am actually clean already, well, super clean I guess :)
No more trauma of the past, no more bitterness in my heart, no more pain, nothing to hide. I am bold in your eyes O Lord. I feel so free and happy :)
Thank you Lord for all the happiness, from there i learned to give and thank you too for the pain, from there i learn to humble myself.
My love, if you will come back to me, I will never let you go again. If God's hand is holding yours too, I know one day we will meet again, just the same way He did when we first met.
I love my God, and I know He will make everything possible to make me the happiest person on earth and on Heaven above.
He let me experience the abundance of having everything, and now He is letting me experience nothing at all.
Everything was taken from me, but I am holding on to the thought that this is still in the process of my victory.
As for the story of Job, God blessed him with everything, but He took everything away too. Job did not stop worshiping and praising God until the day God decided to really take Him out of his misery and pain. That is what I am hoping for.
I trust the Lord that one day, as long as I walk with Him, ill be forever happy and never to cry again. Ill be victorious!
Surrendering to God was hard because you are living in a world where people are not walking the same path as yours. The narrow road is not something easy to take, but it will all be worth it in the end.
My past is gone and dead, i am new and alive once more. The journey to eternal happiness is at my hand already, I just have to wait for the break God will give me where He would tell me "Never to return again, this is the life I offer you, a life with me forever" :)
The feeling that all my sins are gone and I am just dealing with all the consequences of it, feels really refreshing. Its like you are cleaning your house and you are just checking anything dirty left from it, but in the end, the house is clean enough to make more room to happiness!!! I am so excited for the day God will clean everything in me!! I am actually clean already, well, super clean I guess :)
No more trauma of the past, no more bitterness in my heart, no more pain, nothing to hide. I am bold in your eyes O Lord. I feel so free and happy :)
Thank you Lord for all the happiness, from there i learned to give and thank you too for the pain, from there i learn to humble myself.
My love, if you will come back to me, I will never let you go again. If God's hand is holding yours too, I know one day we will meet again, just the same way He did when we first met.
I love my God, and I know He will make everything possible to make me the happiest person on earth and on Heaven above.
Saturday, March 1, 2014
Overwhelming Blessing
Hi Lord,
What else can i say when you made me feel that you love me so much?
I am actually so speechless and i am always crying out of joy.
Before I thought being kind is boring.. being kind was way too FUN!
I never had experience this kind of treatment, I am so spoiled! :)
I am whole, I am complete because of you Lord. No one else made me complete except you.
Thank you for taking care of me and for spoiling me everyday! I can get used to this! :)
I know that you will never leave me because I know how much you love me.
I hope I will be able to fulfill your purpose in this world and contribute to it for your glory and for the advancement of your kingdom.
Take away all my sins and lead me not into temptation. I am weak without you Lord, I need you always.
I cannot win this battle without you, you are my Savior and my Provider! You are my Alpha and Omega!
Thank you for almost everything.. my love bucket was way too FULL and OVERFLOWING! :)
I cannot contain my happiness anymore. You gave me all source of happiness to be very thankful with, I cannot ask for more :)
I love you Lord!
Thursday, February 6, 2014
Excerpt #2
11. Coup de foudre - love at first sight; a connection to another person which becomes thrilling, delicious , sought after center of the world.
12. Being in love can feel like falling and soaring, it can make a person hot or cold, dizzy or calm.
13. Addiction is chronic or habitual use of any checmical substance to alter states of body and mind for other than medically warranted purposes
14. Psychological dependence is the subjective feeling that the user needs the drug to maintain a feeling of well being.
15. Physical dependence is characterized by tolerance( the need for increasingly larger doses in order to achieve the initial effect) and withdrawal symptoms when the user is abstinent.
12. Being in love can feel like falling and soaring, it can make a person hot or cold, dizzy or calm.
13. Addiction is chronic or habitual use of any checmical substance to alter states of body and mind for other than medically warranted purposes
14. Psychological dependence is the subjective feeling that the user needs the drug to maintain a feeling of well being.
15. Physical dependence is characterized by tolerance( the need for increasingly larger doses in order to achieve the initial effect) and withdrawal symptoms when the user is abstinent.
Excerpt #1
1. Language can hardly express a lover's confident, rapturous state of mind
2. In love, everything about the beloved seems thrilling and fascinating.
3. Yet all these characteristics: the narrowing of our world, the obsession, the experience of obstacles as an aphrodisiac, the inability to resist, are also symptoms of a kind of slavery to the substance or person that causes them.
4. were we in the grip of a magnificent obsession fueled by the many obstacle in its path? were we soul mates, or were we being pulled forward by compulsions and desires that take over from reason in situations where love is concerned?
5. I do not like to work with patients who are in love. Perhaps, it is because of envy - I, too,crave enchantment. Perhaps it is because love and psychotherapy are fundamentally incompatible. The good therapist fights darkness and seeks illumination, while romantic love is sustained by mystery and crumbles on inspection. I hate to be love's executioner. - Stanford Psychiatrist Irvin D. Yalom
6. The opposite of love is not hate. The opposite of love is indifference. - Maggie Scarf
7. Addiction is defined by behavior, not by fantasy. With sexual behavior, as with alcoholism, addiction cant be measured by the amount someone drinks or their number of sexual partners. Is everyone who get drunk an alcoholic? Certainly not.
8. Addicts with many different substances are able to control the effects of one by using another.
9. Overeating can diminish the pain of remorse.
10. The rush of energy, the euphoria in the presence of a loved one, possessiveness and the heightened state of lovers when they are together is not exclusive to our species.
2. In love, everything about the beloved seems thrilling and fascinating.
3. Yet all these characteristics: the narrowing of our world, the obsession, the experience of obstacles as an aphrodisiac, the inability to resist, are also symptoms of a kind of slavery to the substance or person that causes them.
4. were we in the grip of a magnificent obsession fueled by the many obstacle in its path? were we soul mates, or were we being pulled forward by compulsions and desires that take over from reason in situations where love is concerned?
5. I do not like to work with patients who are in love. Perhaps, it is because of envy - I, too,crave enchantment. Perhaps it is because love and psychotherapy are fundamentally incompatible. The good therapist fights darkness and seeks illumination, while romantic love is sustained by mystery and crumbles on inspection. I hate to be love's executioner. - Stanford Psychiatrist Irvin D. Yalom
6. The opposite of love is not hate. The opposite of love is indifference. - Maggie Scarf
7. Addiction is defined by behavior, not by fantasy. With sexual behavior, as with alcoholism, addiction cant be measured by the amount someone drinks or their number of sexual partners. Is everyone who get drunk an alcoholic? Certainly not.
8. Addicts with many different substances are able to control the effects of one by using another.
9. Overeating can diminish the pain of remorse.
10. The rush of energy, the euphoria in the presence of a loved one, possessiveness and the heightened state of lovers when they are together is not exclusive to our species.
Excerpt #2
11. Almost everyone is obsessed with leaving a mark upon the world. Bequeathing a legacy. Outlasting death.
12. You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes her.
12. You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes her.
Excerpt # 1
1. I'd shake my head microscopically and exhale in response
2. It occurred to me why they call it "eye contact"
3. I fear oblivion (fact or condition of forgetting or having forgotten)
4. Withholding judgment! When can I see you?
5. That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.
6. That's why I like you. Do you realize how rare it is to come across a hot girl who creates an adjectival version of the word pedophile? You are so busy being you that you have no idea how utterly unprecedented you are.
7. I'm in love with you and m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you and i know that love is just a shout into the void and that oblivion is inevitable and that we are all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust and i know the sun will swallow only the earth well ever have and i'm in love with you.
8. It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you.
9. I'm on a roller coaster ride that only goes up and it is my privilege and my responsibility to ride all the way up with you.
10. The world is not a wish-granting factory
2. It occurred to me why they call it "eye contact"
3. I fear oblivion (fact or condition of forgetting or having forgotten)
4. Withholding judgment! When can I see you?
5. That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.
6. That's why I like you. Do you realize how rare it is to come across a hot girl who creates an adjectival version of the word pedophile? You are so busy being you that you have no idea how utterly unprecedented you are.
7. I'm in love with you and m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you and i know that love is just a shout into the void and that oblivion is inevitable and that we are all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust and i know the sun will swallow only the earth well ever have and i'm in love with you.
8. It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you.
9. I'm on a roller coaster ride that only goes up and it is my privilege and my responsibility to ride all the way up with you.
10. The world is not a wish-granting factory
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